well, since i'm waiting for boss and eric to meet me in sch, i shld might as well update my blog abit ... didnt slp at all last night ... was rushing MP ... very tiring ... nx tuesday our course manager wanna see our project ... seriously, he can ESAD ... i think george yam is better than him ... only know how to give ppl probs ... anyway, lao shu found her da mi le ... MUAHAHAHA~ ... feel happy for her ... well, she deserve someone better than her ex ... she's a very nice and sweet gal ... so i hope her current bf will treat her well ... lol .......

it's good to see or hear ur gd frenz found their 2nd half ... but when u look back on urself, u tend to feel more lonely ... going to be in the 20s liao ... shld i start to be worrying abt myself now or is there still time for me ? .......

dun ask me y i drink, i dunno ... dun ask me y i smoke, i still dunno ... dun really like to smoke nor drink ... but it makes me comfortable and tend to make me 4get unhappy things temporary ... dun try to act as a saint or watever who tries to counsel me to quit smoking or drinking ... u will end up get fucked by me ... so dun even think abt it ......

like ages since my last updates ... i'm lazy la ... also dunno wat to write though .........

i dun mind ppl say i have no fren ... it's ok ... coz i dun really need so much of frenz either ... all i need is juz ppl who really care and understand ... tat's all ...

well, we got 1 new recruit for our supper co. and is the only gal ... huifang aka fangster ... last night went to bedok 85 for our supper ... can say tat she's a nice and friendly gal bah ... after that, went to hougang plaza for our pool session again ... then after that is mr. eric neo de driving session ... can see improvement already ... =)

i think i shld start looking for job to get a living b4 i go NS ... i'm thinking whether i shld go fisherman village or some pub and ask for job ... seriously, i like this kind of lifestyle ... coz ppl might think tat this kind of lifestyle is complicated and unhealthy ... but i feel it's ok for me ... the only prob is my parents ... they dun allow me to ... but i'm quite confident tat i can talk my way out ... ^ ^ ....

u know, recently my heart keep telling me sth which i dunno whether is true or not ... but the feeling is strong ... therefore, i hope u will be the last gal tat i fall in love with ....... i hope i'm not juz talk for nth ........ nightz guys ....

the beginning of the end ... put down all the unhappiness and carry on with ur road ... 2006 ... a very complicated year ... a year which makes me realise alot of things ... realise tat i dun really know myself at all ... wat kind of person i really am ... suddenly feel as if i'm a stranger to myself .........

tired ....

helpless ....

confused ....

miserable ....

i feel no energy in me .........

so many days didnt update liao ... as in i dunno wat to write and how to start ... tired as always, but i think there's a need to update ... have any1 thought of wat's the meaning to live ? ... dun mistaken tat i feel like committing suicide or watever ... this is a qns in my mind for a very long time ... some ppl say u live to find out the ans to tat qns, some ppl juz simply dun bother ... i cant say tat i'm a optimistic person as i always prepare myself for the worst to come ... and i hate ppl to tell me,"look on the bright side" ... tat person will simply get a wacking from me ... to me, tat sentence is simply juz to console urself or to help u escape from the reality ... i rather to get myself prepared for the worst or think of solution to solve the problem .......

juz return home from ben's house ... lol ... spent my night at his house ... i shld start from where i ended at the latest update ... sat morning, went to the rivervale mall NTUC to prepare the stuffs for the steamboat at around 9am ...reach home at abt 11.30 ... need to do some preparation b4 meeting the Corps. for the movie ..."Death Note 2 : The Last Name" is very nice ... only ppl know how to appreciate will find it nice ...after tat, spent around 1hr in tampines mall shopping b4 going to my house ... we ate and have fun during the steamboat ...a short mahjong session after the steamboat ... ben went home and came back with car ... meanwhile, waiting for ben, me and eric played chinese chess ... LOL ... so cool~ ... i only manage to win him 1 round ... lol ...me, wl, eric and ben went to Blk 401 for supper and pool session at hougang plaza ... here comes the funny part ... wl and eric were force to be the member of the pool shop b4 they can play ... the membercard maker uncle was slping ...we wake him up ... then he open his bag and stop moving ... omg lor, he fall asleep juz like tat lor ... then it takes us like 20mins to get the membership coz he keep fall asleep halfway ( u win liao lor ... like tat also can )...well, tat's for sat and sun morning ...during xmas eve ... we went to town - far east plaza( bcoz ben wanna see tat spin3 gal ) ... lol ... after tat, we went to meet lixin and her frenz ... around 9+ derrick jio us go fisherman village for drink + smoking session ...we took some time to decide and we meet derrick at pasir ris interchange then we took 403 to fisherman village ...we ordered 1 mini barrel for a start ... the kick didnt come as we juz chit chat and drink slowly ... after tat, we "da" 1 mug, 2 mug ... then it starts to show results ... 2/5 went havoc and drunk ... haha ... throughout the celebration, it was funny and fun ... memoriable also ... we separate to 2 cabs and i stayed over at ben house ......

i'm willing to wait for u ... doesnt matter how long it can be .......i dun mind not being the one holding ur hand wherever we go, hugging u to give u the warmth u desire, kissing ur forehead b4 saying good night ...but i will be the one lending u my shoulder when u need it, walking behind u to watch and prevent u from falling, letting u bite when u feel like crying ...my presence might not be important to u ... but ur presence is the most important thing to me ...

it's a very busy this wk ... wed is my 1st time wake up so early to shop ... lol ... memoriable experience ... and the weather has been nice to us, didnt rain( i think so bah ) tat day ... i spent about 200bucks during the shopping spree ... bought 2 shirts, 1 t-shirt, 1 3/4 pants and 1 black pants + 3/15 stars tat i'm looking for ... all these things r worth ... hahaha~ ... dad say only wear them after CNY ... but he knows i dun care ... =x ... anyway, CNY also not a fashion show, dun really have to wear new clothes de mah ... sometime i juz feel like wear shorts and slipper then take my hongbao and go home ... furthermore, nx yr 1st day of CNY is my bday ... how sad can tat be ?! ... i mean like ppl dun even know it's ur bday lor ... or dun even care to give u another hongbao ... ya lah, i dun celebrate my bday de la ... i mean y for celebrate bday ? it's juz a ordinary day mah ... i dun intend to celebrate my 21st bday ... my frenz r some example ... there's only 1 host and u cant expect to be able to entertain all the guest ... cfm there will be some who will be left out ...
today will be another busy day also ... 8am have to wake up go market with mum and help prepare those steamboat stuffs ... 3pm meet up with the Corp. for "Death Note 2 : The Last Name" sneak preview ... after tat, all will be coming to my house for steamboat ... as for sunday, i think i'll juz camp at home to replenish ... this holiday i've already overspend too much ... need to rest ...

i may not be a rich, handsome and prefect guy ... i dun have anything tat makes me stand out from the rest ... but i have 1 thing tat i'm proud of and i'm sure it will not lose to any1 ....... which is my feelings for u .... i wont say tat i'll love u forever as nth last forever ... but wat i can say is tat, as long as my feeling never changes, u will see the 100% of me ... but if possible, i hope tat i can bring this feeling with me till the day i slp inside the coffin ..................